Incise & Drain

When I was 13, I wanted to be a Neurosurgeon. Perhaps because back then, it sounded seemingly cool. 

At some point in medical school, I wanted to be a Cardiothoracic Surgeon. It had been unknown to me then, but I had already fallen for Cardiac physiology...and more. 

Few years along the line, I was sure that I wanted to be a Cardiologist rather than a CT surgeon. 

Enter my first job and first year as a junior doctor: I was more sure than ever that I wanted to be a cardiologist, if not - medicine. 

Today on my first day as a surgical house officer on call, I ponder how I ever considered surgery in the first place. How was it that I ever thought I possessed the qualities and the personality of a surgeon? 

So much bitching, back-stabbing and heaping the blame on others already. 

ARGH. 

Give me back Medicine! Give me back Cardiology!!